First Midterm

Today I had my first ever university midterm.
I am so glad it's over.

For the past two weeks, anatomy and physiology has been my religion. Countless hours of my life have been sucked away by reviewing lecture captures and struggling to learn about the human brain. Still, despite my studying, I felt anxious all morning.

A fun fact about myself is that I've never been a "day of" studier. Usually, I study well in advance until I reach a point where I give up and resort to binge watching TV shows. This time however, no amount of Netflix could calm my nerves. I'm not sure if it's because anatomy and physiology is ridiculously difficult, or simply because this was my first experience writing a university test, but I was a wreck. I tried all day to cram as much information as possible into my head until I began to feel nauseous.

Once I started to feel like I might pass out, I packed up all of my things and left my residence in attempt to calm myself down. A lengthy walk around campus worked to distract me, but only slightly before I noticed other students heading towards the exam. I was so anxious that I honestly thought I might not make it out of that test alive.


Suddenly, my mind cleared, and I heard a voice in my head confidently say "you're going to come out of this, and you're going to continue on to write countless more midterms. One day, you'll look back at this moment laughing because you're such a stress bag." In that moment, I started to laugh out loud and my nerves were eased a little. Realizing how ridiculous my feelings were was exactly what I needed to push myself and go write my test.

The ridiculous part is that, like most things in my life, I was way over prepared and worried myself sick for absolutely no purpose. I'm happy to report that my midterm was much simpler than I expected, and I'm confident I passed!

Afterwards, I treated myself to a London Fog before moving on to my next assignment due that day. One way or another, I will make it through this program.